I used to have an enormous problem with male anatomy. It took me years to get over it, to stop having nightmares, to stop being triggered every time I saw a penis. It was slow going recovering the part of myself that could appreciate and be aroused by the beauty of human bodies in all their forms. One of the things that helped was writing about it. I’ve been writing for 15 years and my stories provided the safe space to explore my relationships to all sorts of different kinds of people. And one of my characters played a very important role in helping me to see the male body for what it is. I learned to look past the hurt and the scars to recognize the human being behind the body. You can actually see my process throughout the cuilverse; you can watch me coming to terms with it and reclaiming lost ground. And that is a hell of a thing. Jean Claude was a big help to me and this scene, taken from You Don’t Belong Here…, shows my start down the path to always see the human first, no matter what.
You’ll also be able to find this scene in the Cuil Scenes section, as always.