Watch “Endometriosis” on YouTube

This is a fantastic visual of what’s going on inside the body when endo and PCOS strike. They go over some treatments as well. Right now I’m in line to have some of my nerves cut because of the pain. I’ve thankfully avoided having a hysterectomy so far. The doctors never told me why but […]

Living with PMS That Makes You Want to Die | Broadly

Dear God, I’d totally forgotten there was a name for such a nightmarish experience. All those hundreds of suicide attempts, the inexplicable hunger, rage, and depression. The never-ending panic attacks. Wanting to cut my organs out. Being misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder. Every female disorder seemed to have hit me: endometriosis, PCOS, and PMDD. I can’t […]

Cuil Peeks and Scene: Zeitelia (All That Glitters)

Heh heh. So I’ve been in that state where my ideas and worlds are building faster than my body can create them externally. Let’s just say four or five unwritten stories are all building themselves and integrating in my mind and that that’s been how it is for the past few weeks. Mm, maybe it’s […]

Yesterday I Ran Out of Spoons

*That photo isn’t dancing; it’s cringing in pain in various positions, screaming out, “God, why!” **Run screaming now if you’re squeamish or don’t care about chronic conditions and pain. And this is why. Here’s everything you never wanted to know about my conditions: 1. Endometriosis: Except giving birth was relatively easy (even though they ended […]

How I Managed Not To Kill Myself | Postmodern Woman

Other than the simplified assumptions about womanhood, God yes. I still struggle with the knowledge that I can’t just do what everyone else does. And only being validated in my terrible experiences by undergoing the knife. And even then not having people understand this and other conditions that sap my strength, my energy, my brain, […]