The Big Bang: The Black Tree

Once upon a time an Author had too many memories… Revisiting the chaotic big bang of the cuilverse from my perspective: The Black Tree series. It is not the actual beginning of the universes within the cuilverse, it was simply my entry/departure from the norm point. The series that started it all. It is a […]

Mask: Sick Woman Theory

You already know of my experience with an ever-growing list of illnesses. I grok this so hard. “There are two failures here, though. The first is her reliance on a “public” – which requires a private, a binary between visible and invisible space. This meant that whatever takes place in private is not political. So, […]

5 Signs You’re Trapped In An Irrational Relationship (And How To Fix It)

They wanted the effect without the right cause. The Law Of Causality Unhappiness is the result of believing you deserve something you have not earned. Life is much simpler than most people want you to believe. You do x and you get y. That’s it. It’s a simple math equation. The problem is the average […]

Integrated Living Part Six: Clear Your Cache

Having anxiety sucks. Having a shitty past sucks. All of these random, useless, and destructive thoughts come crawling out of the dark and begin taking over like a damn cancer. There are worries about completely harmless situations devolving into one of those “holy shit” moments you’ve become so well-acquainted with. There are the panic attacks […]

Tempered Schism

Whilst suffering mild anxiety and weariness from my PCOS last night, I had something click for me. I was out at a poly meetup and despite how odd and disconnected I was feeling, I loved being there. The people were wonderful and kind, my partner was thoughtful and caring, and that magical creativity burst forth […]

My New Obsession

Ah ha ha! I just found a wonderful new hole to fall into. Yes yes must explore, must flesh it out, must, absolutely must, write about it to truly delve into the experience of it. I always knew I was weird. Now I have found more edges of my mind to slide past in effort […]