Once upon a time an Author had too many memories… Revisiting the chaotic big bang of the cuilverse from my perspective: The Black Tree series. It is not the actual beginning of the universes within the cuilverse, it was simply my entry/departure from the norm point. The series that started it all. It is a […]
Category: Consciousness
Mask: Sick Woman Theory
You already know of my experience with an ever-growing list of illnesses. I grok this so hard. “There are two failures here, though. The first is her reliance on a “public” – which requires a private, a binary between visible and invisible space. This meant that whatever takes place in private is not political. So, […]
Removing The Mask: How Vulnerability Can Heal Us All — metanoïa
Powerful words. And it’s the way I prefer to live my own life. No shadows. No darkness for ugliness to hide in. Stop giving them places to hide. Transparency is the only clear option. http://www.metanoiablog.net/latest/2014/7/8/removing-the-mask-how-vulnerability-can-heal-us-all
5 Signs You’re Trapped In An Irrational Relationship (And How To Fix It)
They wanted the effect without the right cause. The Law Of Causality Unhappiness is the result of believing you deserve something you have not earned. Life is much simpler than most people want you to believe. You do x and you get y. That’s it. It’s a simple math equation. The problem is the average […]
Integrated Living Part Six: Clear Your Cache
Having anxiety sucks. Having a shitty past sucks. All of these random, useless, and destructive thoughts come crawling out of the dark and begin taking over like a damn cancer. There are worries about completely harmless situations devolving into one of those “holy shit” moments you’ve become so well-acquainted with. There are the panic attacks […]
Channeling Reality Into Fantasy
*This is a post about some of my medical issues: PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) and Endometriosis. I’ve been dealing with them for nearly 15 years and they will never go away. I’ve tried nearly everything except one (the big surgery). And it may just be time to do that. So if you’re squeamish, especially about […]
Unfamiliar Territory
What odd feelings. To be this joyous, this bittersweet, this peaceful and hopeful. To want to cry, both from the loss of ones close to my heart and the happiness of forming new connections. What is this wonderful thing? What are these beautiful things in my life now? To know a new side of my […]
Freaking Out
Okay, the new covers are all finished and ready to go. Did I update every site? I have like a million. Maybe I should hire an assistant to make sure. Haha, just kidding, I’m too broke for that. Are all the letters aligned perfectly? Do the covers make sense? How soon will they update […]
Tempered Schism
Whilst suffering mild anxiety and weariness from my PCOS last night, I had something click for me. I was out at a poly meetup and despite how odd and disconnected I was feeling, I loved being there. The people were wonderful and kind, my partner was thoughtful and caring, and that magical creativity burst forth […]
My New Obsession
Ah ha ha! I just found a wonderful new hole to fall into. Yes yes must explore, must flesh it out, must, absolutely must, write about it to truly delve into the experience of it. I always knew I was weird. Now I have found more edges of my mind to slide past in effort […]
