*That photo isn’t dancing; it’s cringing in pain in various positions, screaming out, “God, why!” **Run screaming now if you’re squeamish or don’t care about chronic conditions and pain. And this is why. Here’s everything you never wanted to know about my conditions: 1. Endometriosis: Except giving birth was relatively easy (even though they ended […]
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Fighting Back
Trigger Warning: talk of rape, assault, and abuse below. If you’d rather read my happier stuff, wait a couple days and I’ll be back to posting about my characters and books. I simply needed to get this off my chest due to a wonderful, revealing, and barely traumatizing conversation I had with my current partner […]
Emotional Intelligence (A Cuil Contemplation)
Part of my intense annoyance with films is because I’m aromantic. The sappy stuff that normally excites everyone else bores me if it doesn’t confuse me. But a large part of that annoyance stems from a much deeper, more insidious issue. I notice it because I’m already a sinister weirdo (by sinister I mean left-handed; […]
The Illusion of Health and Other Things
These past few weeks have been so exhausting. Not because I was working hard (though I have been), not because I’m still in mourning (which I am), and not because I desperately miss my family and friends (which I do). No, the reason is much more insidious than that. My body is giving me hell […]
Sarcasm, Orgasm, and Profanity-Oh My!
First, I want to share the good news. In my best Farnsworth voice, “Good news, everyone! My laptop has been repaired and now I can continue with my crazy experiments!” Fantastic. That felt good. Okay, now on to the matter at hand. I’d like to talk about the way my books are written, because if […]
Alienating My Audience, Or Why MSI?
You may have noticed I have a small obsession with Mindless Self Indulgence. Why does such a crazy band with insane music and hilariously offensive lyrics speak to me? Well, their music is like my life: full of craziness, fun, and a whole lot of fuck you’s to the dark and the danger. Their manic […]
Channeling Reality Into Fantasy
*This is a post about some of my medical issues: PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) and Endometriosis. I’ve been dealing with them for nearly 15 years and they will never go away. I’ve tried nearly everything except one (the big surgery). And it may just be time to do that. So if you’re squeamish, especially about […]
Cuil Levels
For each series in the Cuil Effect Project a cuil level is assigned. These range from level one to level seven. Each level is progressively further removed from reality as we know it. Then there is level zero, which is so far removed it actually circles around and reflects reality and cuil reality. In general, […]
Freaking Out
Okay, the new covers are all finished and ready to go. Did I update every site? I have like a million. Maybe I should hire an assistant to make sure. Haha, just kidding, I’m too broke for that. Are all the letters aligned perfectly? Do the covers make sense? How soon will they update […]
No Time to Breathe
Why do I write books the way I do? Why the insanely fast pace with every event toppling over the last and racing towards an absolute frenzy of confusion? Why such heavy topics running into one another, intersections borne of hints and cracks elsewhere in the cuilverse? It’s actually quite simple: my life has been […]
